First of Many

I never expected it to be like that. It was thrilling-- it had my heartbeat halting and my subconscious yearning. I can't exactly define how it was for me but I felt my heart do somersaults and my stomach flipped. It was crazy. Crazy wonderful, even. Inexplicable... irresistible, that I can't help but ask for more. I thought it won't be paving my way that soon but heck, I don't care. It was fine, everything felt right. It's like having my cravings when I'm badly starving-- just what I need and want.

PHOTODUMP: Badet's 18th Birthday Celebration

Sooo, a close friend held her debut last night at Hotel H2o somewhere in Manila and-- voila! Here's a blogpost dedicated to our vanity. I won't be posting lotsa pictures though, just a few of which I looked decent in. Teehee.

DISCLAIMER: Photos aren't mine, they're Danela Bautista's and Suzanne Ubaldo's. Thank you, Dane and Zhayne!

At Charry's dorm. Ready to go!

With my girl, Rhea.

Candid. This was pre-party, actually. I know, I looked stress, and that's because I was caught in the middle of a misunderstanding with my baby, Janice. We're fine now, though!

With Rhea, Suzanne and Agatha while waiting for the debutant!

5/16 of Full Force! This was during the duration of the program, I guess. With Ralph, Charry, Sam, and Jans.

Two of my bestfriends, my boy, and Pong right there but concealed, had a little something for Badet so yeah, they were at the stage, singing.

With you-know-who, my you-know-what-his-role-in-my-life-is. ♥

After everything else. With 3/5 of Awesome Foursome! And you know what's crazy? We're all wearing lace and we didn't even talked about it.

With my girls! Almost everyone's single-- pick one! Lol.

With Badet, the birthday girl! And Full Force. And some people from my school and I don't really know them.

With Charry, Kisses, and Sam! This was at the dance showdown I guess. HAHA. Guess who won.

At Liquid! The after-party we all went to. Guess who had Vanilla Milkshake and was reading 50 Shades instead. Thanks a lot, dad and your extended security, my future boyf.

Closing this blog with a photo of yours truly. Hihi. They wanted it to be colorful so I wore striking orange and blue. Teehee.

I had fun and I know everybody does as well. Thank you, Badet! We owe you one. Be one of the fiercest girls out there 'cause I know you're an amazona. Love you!

Part-time?

Supposedly, I'll be posting something about how our first month went but then my feels got screwed up and I needed to vent, so...



I really don't know what to say. I felt backstabbed. And I felt like shit, if I may add. I'm not even sure if I'm just overthinking or what, but my subconscious has been telling me that I'm right-- that all these fuckery's about how I was ditched, how I was disposed by my own friends. I know them. They're mean as hell. Yes, I'm mean as well, but do they have to do that to me? I mean, we're friends, how come?

Oh god, I hate second guessing.

The Unthinkable, Unexplainable

So, this is love.

When he just sits beside you and your heart starts thumping though neither of you is utt'ring a word, when he slips his hand into yours and you feel smitten-ly uncomfy yet you're lovin' every second in that moment, when he caresses you and you feel his warmth; from his seemingly protective arms to the warmth of his soul, when he sneaks you out to your favorite place to seize the moment you're in, when backreading your convos makes your heart feel jumpy and giddy, when he talks to you via chat or text and you still feel that fleeting feeling you get when you converse personally, when he's happy that you're happy, when he made you cry because you learnt that he's  asked to meet some girl and he chose not to 'cause he'd rather stick with you, when he effortlessly makes you happy, and last, when he tells you he loves you and you know you just got to say you love him too 'cause without a doubt, he's the closest thing to what you "want" and "need" and you could not ask for more.

If that is it, I 'd love to fall inlove forever.