On My Recent Hiatus

Your resident babble machine has been under construction lately. College has drained my creative juices to the point that my English started to suck and I can write no more. I am helpless. My blog is helpless. Nothing is up.

But I've been busy.

I ended my battle with Midterms recently and looking back at my performance, I think the graduation ship has tilted. LOL, I kid! But I am hoping and praying that everything will turn out fine for me to be able to leave school permanently. Huzzah! Oh and, It's elections week! Been on the yellow side for four years now and we're rooting for our third win. Speaking of win, I am up for another spelling bee contest on February 10! I am both excited and anxious at the same time 'cause I badly want to win however, it would always ring in me that I think I'm not good enough. GOOD LORD, GUIDE ME. I need money for the upcoming diplomatic ball. YAS! The highlight of the month, probably.To be held on 28th of February, we are expected to wear long gowns and look beautiful for a night. I could not wait!!! Or not. I could not feign excitement 'cause I don't have moolah to spare. Sad. And how sawn on my sentences in this paragraph are is depressing.

As for the moment, I am bracing myself for finals. F I N A L S!!! I really want to edit my blog template now, but college is taking up so much of my time so I'd save that for summer. For now, let me concentrate on our thesis... okay, baby thesis.

Wish me luck. I might not be able to update for weeks but always know that I love you all.


P.S.: I AM HAVING THE WORST WRITER'S BLOCK EVER.

xx

Wants Upon a Season

From where I'm from, Christmas is celebrated for four months. September 1 kicks in and Christmas songs start playing everywhere! Okay, what the f, that sounds a bit like a cross-cultural-ish intro for this entry when the main point is to just put everything I wanted for Christmas. Ha! So, I present to you, my twenty-fourteen wishlist! (Please note that I still accept gifts on my birthday, which is just less than a month after Christmas. Thanks.)

A laptop which runs on a Win 8.1 OS would be useful 'cause apparently, our old one's busted. Sigh

An iPhone... or any awesome smart phone because I love Instagram.

A pair (or more) of platforms, boots, yadda yadda, all because I'm into fashion experimentation.

Let's throw in some cool clothes with that.

And accessories.

Makeups! And for specifications, I want NYX Matte lip creams (In the ff. shades: Addis Ababa, Amsterdam, Buenos Aires, Milan, Ibiza, Copenhagen, Morocco, and Cairo), Maybelline Falsies, In2It's eyebrow powder and highlighter, e.l.f. Blush and Bronzer duo, Bavi Phat BB Cream, a makeup pallette, and perhaps a makeup brush set.

A yellow or black Instax mini 8 or mini 90s! All because I am very sentimental and I am a memorabilia junkie. You know, when I've got lots of them and I've got my own place, I'd stick them on my wall.

Taylor Swift's new album and tickets to her next tour. I. LOVE. HER. SO. MUCH.

Intimate time with the boyfriend. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Exclusion of sex, of course. I just feel like catching up on some things.

Candies and chocolates because I'm just like a kid.

An investment, perhaps business, for my parents.

Divine healing.

TO GRADUATE. And be rich.

To the Birthday Boy

Twenty years of existence. Twenty years and so far, I've spent three birthdays with you.

The first one was when I was still trying to figure out my feelings for you. I was assuming and I guess you were to me as well. You invited me over and I was somewhere between being stoked and being nervous because I thought it was only the two of us. I thought it was going to be my first real date and I couldn't wait to share it with you... until you told me you were inviting her also. False alarm. All the butterflies in my stomach apparently has to leave. I was almost devastated but then I thought; fine. We're friends, what do I expect. But still, fate seemed like it paved its way for us to work our barely existing relationship out. She was gone for awhile 'cause I instructed her to buy our surprise gift (hehe, which I slightly planned actually) and we ended up talking and talking and talking and it felt like melting into each other's souls through the stories we shared while we waited for her to come back. Oh how I wish she didn't. LOL. Anyway, I knew you felt it 'cause I did, and it was just one of the instances wherein I knew you're going to play an important role in my life. And you did, you became my boyfriend five months after.

A year after, nothing grand happened except that our feelings bloomed despite the simplicity of your celebration. I had no gift for you but mom had and we're glad you liked the cordon bleu. Jollibee was great though it's far from exclusive. Sharing the moment with you felt exclusive.

This year, things improved quite a bit. I brought you cupcakes and I'm glad you liked them. We dined and talked like we usually do and I'm glad we did. You told me we can celebrate some other time but I think it will lack essence 'cause today is your birthday and it's much appropriate to celebrate today 'cause it's more special that way. I love you, I wish I'm right where you are.

More birthdays with you to come, please?

Please

You tell them I'm your last like you've finally decided to spend your future with me. I don't know whether I'm happy or sad because we're too young to talk about marriage, yet old enough to plan for the future. Breakups are inevitable and you make it seem like it isn't. I love it but I'd always overthink and prepare myself for when the time comes. I dunno, I see my future with you but always I think you'll get tired of my bipolar attitude and then leave me eventually. I've put too much trust in you yet I still feel this way. Well, fuck me and my trust issues, right?

I love you, please stay.