Life and its surprises

I have loved, got hurt, and forsworn that I would never love again but as usual, the aforementioned are remnants of my broken vows. As I see it, love is too complex for my life and probably it's the same reason why I'm still single.

Speaking of complexity, I think I'm doing the stupidest thing ever... and I'm not going to mention anything much about it, yet, but I'll give a slight hint about it. Talk about love! And "strangers". And the fact that I think it's wrong unless it's for someone popular. Neeeeehhhh, but it's just awfully retarded that I'm starting to think that something must be wrong with myself. Urgh, the actual fuckery and all things sane. Why is this happening to my life? How come I'm thinking of him? I don't have any clue but I guess I must thank the Heavens above for giving me a reason to barf rainbows.

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Valentine's Day, Hearts Day, Single Awareness Day, Whatever you call it Day, it doesn't matter 'cause I still can't produce my own kilig. I know, I suck at making landi and all, which means that I won't be talking about myself in this post. Hihi.

Like any other Tuesdays, nothing much had happened. Except that we see a lot of people around us being sweet and cuddly... and I stand there in awe, wishing I could feel the same. But NO, I'm not getting any sweets soon. But just as I was about to feel envious of them, my friend who happened to be in the same school, dropped by and gave me a cupcake! Sweet! And then everybody was like, "Yieeeee" 'cause they thought that it was from someone special. Ha! No, he's just a friend, and a friend of my ___ actually. But he saved me! Thank you, Donne!

After lunch, my friend Charmaine got a surprise! I'm sure she's happy, and we were just so happy for her!!! I swear, we looked like idiots jumping for joy that even our class vice president got angry. Hahahaha! Bitter. But heck, I was just so kilig and I don't care about anybody else.

I was about to have a date with my bestfriend but it turns out she can't come because of some things. Aw, the heck, we'll go out on Friday anyway!!! The looove. 4 months of not seeing each other, we'll disregard you!

That sums up my day. Yes, I'm happy, no need to worry. I will find myself a boyfriend soon, I promise! ♥

I told you, "You might have him, but I always get the last word"

I would like to believe that karma's a bitch and too much of that is on its way to "him". So again, they broke up. And that kiddo, for imbecile reasons, started posting "Happy Valentines Day!" on her friends'profile. She posted on her ex's profile and as I can see, there's a slight hint of pamiss and intentional hurting whatsoever in it. Seriously, I don't like it. After I posted "She better hold him tight, give him all the love, look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky 'cause he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar, the only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star." she'll do that?! Sweet Jesus. I just told her, but in a really really subtle manner, that I'm leaving everything to her and she can have him. Just. Don't. Ever. Hurt. Him. BUT SHE JUST DID.

Oh come on, I could have been better than that. But I was never given the chance to prove it and worst, I got hurt so... there you go, you're feeling the same now. Good luck with that, 'cause I'm over that phase and too bad I can't stay with him there. Hah! Mwah!

Reasons Why I'd Rather Not Celebrate Valentines' Day

1. I'm single and I know it.
2. My friends will/might brag that they have dates.
3. I'm forever alone and somebody rubbed it in my face so hard that I wanted to hit that person then and there.
4. Yes, thy "ex" is single, but I don't give a fuck anymore.
5. I have far more better things to do than go on a date -- like study for school.
6. This list can go on but I'm sure it will just slap me with two too many you-know-you-are-not-with-anyone sentences.

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To be honest, never in my entire life have I received a gift from anyone on Valentines' Day. Ha! I know, that sucks and for that, I'm such a loser. Plus the fact that I never had a boyfriend, it's an addition to everything that screams "single and will never have a boyfriend soon". However, I'm not saying that not being in a relationship is sad, its just that you'll feel something that makes you want to crave for some kind of affection that you can't get from your family and friends. And that I have experienced, never in my entire 17 years of existence. Zzzzz...

Anyhoo, I'm fine and... why, is this another post about love? Ugggghhh. I'm done