Clockwork

Life is a series of tests. In my 19 years of existence, the most important thing I tend to always forget (or ignore, even) is the art of perfect timing. Having a short temper and a bad case of social anxiety made matters worse all because I can't help but feel intimidated and sad most of the time. And when I said sad I meant, the kind of sad that takes a loooooot of  time. Intimidated, well, I am beyond insecure and I considered not going out anymore. Geez, do I sound so bad?

I told you a lot of times about being left behind by "that person I liked" when we were bound to ride the ferriswheel. To say that all I felt was nothing but excruciating emotional pain is an understatement. That and my first ever Taylor Swift concert experience --which I never get to experience, by the way, because "they" left me-- are the reasons why I always felt so insignificant. I merely gave up and moved on until I finally had the chance to redeem all the pain it caused me. Surprises, yes, they come unexpectedly.

It turns out God is emptying our hands for something better. I may had one of the worst heartbreaks in my life as regards to the ferriswheel but in it, I also shared my first real kiss with the only guy who loved me for me. As for Taylor, news just in! Selecta Cornetto called me up yesterday saying I won VIP tickets to the Red Tour this June!!! Ahhhh! Call me blessed not lucky for this is all from God! All thanks to Him! Truth be told, I was kinda down the whole week because of something I got rejected of and then this!!! I vow to never lose hope anymore because He blesses the deserving people.

2013: What is left for me to say?

I was about to compose a year-end post like most of my online friends did until it suddenly hit me-- compared to theirs, my life is tad too boring for this kind of thing.

However, I am darn jelly and it's been a must for me to assess what happened to the year that was. What's left for me to write?

A bad breakup, maybe? Nah-uh. In fact, you should congratulate me for being the contrary! For the first time in years, I finally got myself a freaking boyfriend! 15th January, my birthday, I finally said yes to my then bestfriend. It was surreal, really, for I am the type of girl who's most unlikely to be in a relationship for being one of the boys but then again, I stand corrected. There is time for everything and currently, we are on our way to celebrating our first year anniversary. I am beyond happy being in this relationship, indeed! Shout out to the awesome-st boyfriend there is; I love you to the moon and back! (Back story, read)

An out of town trip with friends? Again, no way. Setting aside the fact that I got myself into several feuds this year (mehehehe), I was able to bond and grew closer(-er!) with my awesome girls. We are now on our third year in college and still unstoppable! Albeit, let us not forget the ruined bonds (RIP) and the new ones that were formed. Yay for new friends and nay for frenemies! Hiyeeeaaahhh! Feel the sarcasm on the last part.

Oh, oh! An award? Still, no. I wasn't able to bring any bacon home this year but I entered this thingy where I was asked to deliver an impromptu speech. Just, hahahahahaha, let's not talk about it. Speaking of award, I think this counts. Last semester, we had a terror prof. How should I start describing him? He is a dictator-- Hitler's reincarnation, probably. He is scary, intimidating, what else? He is lovable... sweet, smart, thoughtful, and funny. Despite all the difficulties he showered upon us, I am proud to say that I was once the highest in his exams and I was top 3 on his Midterm grade ranking! Ha! And not only that, my clique got close to him and yadda yadda, he wasn't that bad of a man, he's an inspiration. 

Ok, I give up. No, don't Last year was tough and I never gave up. I toughened up and showed the world who's the boss. 2013 will say bye in just a few hours and let me share with you the most important thing it taught me; Always be confident and believe in yourself. Don't be an ersatz for it won't lead you anywhere. Be yourself and you will see everything fall into place. Cheers to year that was! Happy New Year and let's all be productive in 2014! xx

PS: Woah there! Looks like my life's not that boring at all!

PPS: ¡Feliz Año Nuevo! Hablo Español. ¡Ja! ¡Ja! ¡Ja!
PPPS: This is one corny post.
PPPPS: This acronym (minus the S) reminds me of PNoy's Pantawid Pamilya Program HAHAHAHHAHA Random

Last Friday of 2012

This must be the reason why the world didn't end the Friday before-- 'cause I'll be out on my first real date! Yay! And it's a real date with someone who really loves me and vice versa so yes, I had a really good time! Enough with the talk, commencing photodump in 3, 2, 1...

The first photo we took on that day! Before that, we met somewhere near school and grabbed our breakfasts at McDonald's. Do I hear "Hooray for today"? ♥

A candid shot of the (future) boyf.

We can't decide where to eat! We lurked around a few buildings at MOA before finally deciding to eat at Sizzlin' Pepper Steak. Worth the price, love? Oh yes.

A quick shot at the movie house! We watched Sisterakas 'cause I wanted to. HAHAHA. I swear, I'm glad that he's not bruised from all the slaps and punches he received from me. I transform into a slapping monster everytime I can't contain my laugh! BTW, the movie's not that great, haha.

We had Chatime and we went out to Seaside boulevard 'cause weeks ago, I was teasing him about riding the MoA Eye. Haha! While finishing our drinks, we sat near it and watched the sky turn pitch dark... And wait for the craving to ride go hardcore! Lalalala~

Yes, he took this.

And yes, I took this. Wait,doesn't he look like... uh, nevermind.

Aaaannndddd, at the MoA Eye! Shitty gondola is shitty, it's too blurred. We paid 500 for the special one 'cause the regular ones won't allow two persons only so... yeah.

Our companion! Jk. Teehee.

Not the only photo we have inside it, but HAHAHAHA.

View from near the sea! Yes, it's pretty!

Neither of us is vain and I wonder how we pulled this off. Seriously.

The cat that never gave a fuck

Perfect timing. We were walking on our way to the terminal when these babies came out! Ohhhh, it's great!

It's a full moon!

This may be the last for the year. My apologies if this isn't a year-ender blog which most bloggers do (and I do, for the past few years), but this is my idea of a year-ender-- a post which brought an end to my blog's misery. More happy posts, more soon! If you always visit this piece of shit, you prolly noticed the transition-- from "suicidally" sad letters to cotton candy sweet descriptives... ulk. I think I'm becoming better emotionally. But ugh, what the hell. I still suck at blogging so HAHA!

And as for Ralph who'll be in this dumpsite soon; Thank you, love. You were my 2012 and hopefully, the years to come. I'm not cheesy and I suck at it but I'm trying hard to be sweet and I love how you appreciate that. Thank you! And I love you so much. Mmmmmwwwaaaahhh!

Darn, I have to go. Shitloads of schoolwork are piling up! Yay, no fun vacation!

Keep Your Cool, Schoolers Gonna School

It's June! You know what it means...

School month. Yeah, we'll all be back to school in a few! It's also an indication that once again, we'll be... A.) Waking up early. B.) Have wallets plumper than us, C.) Welcoming stress with open arms, D.) Have shitloads of things to do that will make us wish for a reunion with summer, and E.) Experiencing lots and lots multiple choices whatsoever... like this one. Mehehe.

Admit it. Every summer, a part-- no, a huge portion of you misses school and once you're back and the real is on the rise, you started feeling the contrary. Am I right? I know you couldn't agree more.

So... classes are going to start in less than two weeks, and I can't conceal my excitement! But honestly, I guess I won't feel that way if not for my friends and my allowance. Of course! I'm just like any other student-- school bores me but it excites me at the same time. Did I mention that I curse sleepless nights? That I also cringe over requirements? Oh, and I do procrastinate. It's quite surprising that amidst my busy schedule, I still find time to blog. I hope you haven't noticed, but I blog a bit like, regularly. One post per week (for me) is regular, so deal with it! Anyway, I have yet to mention that writing keeps me sane and it's the kind of breather that I wanted so instead of doing crazy things like getting wasted or something, I'd rather sit infront of my computer and talk about how my life went. After which, I'm all set to study 'cause I've finally got to vent all the heaviest sighs out. Ha. I sound tame, I know.

Hopefully, next sem will be just as great as the previous ones. Especially now that we have Sunday classes... Do I hear an Amen for restlessness? Amen! College, I'm ready. Bring it on!

You had me at hello

The feeling you get when butterflies flutter in your stomach is just sensational. If somebody denies that, then s/he must be lying.

If I'm not mistaken, the last time I felt this overwhelming feeling was... many months ago? I don't know, blame my "selective amnesia". I may have forgotten the date but the feeling remained, and I'm liking it. No, loving. And I don't mind feeling it over and over and over again that I could even go on like that forever.

I think I could like you... I already do.
Feelings can grow, but they can go away too.

When I entered college, I thought the possibility of liking someone new is blurry. But here it is, the moment has finally arrived! Just when I was about to live a life of single-blessedness. Joke. It's not that I'm actually looking for someone who's going to fill HIS place in my heart, it's just that I miss the feeling of hoarding all the kilig vibes and having to look around everywhere, searching for him in the crowd. Arrrgggghhh, I haven't told anyone about this yet. Well, except my girl and guy best friend, my block mate, and this blog! I'm trying to keep it down low because I don't want to mess it up!

It's nothing serious, he just caught my attention then blaaaahhhh the awkward me reared its head so I'm shutting up so I won't ruin the spur of the moment. Just, ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!! I don't know how to describe what I feel but I'm pretty sure that it's unusual... so unusual that my heart beats unusually as well.

It's Fearless

10th August 2011. Props making - 3rd day.

The day started great. I couldn't hide my giddiness! It was like the first time since who knows when that I got excited to go to school ever since I started going to college. Yay! Thank God for my new friends - slash - alliances, for they are the reason why I'm motivated to go to school.

The escapade started at 9AM. We actually begged our Math prof to allow us to go out! Good thing he agreed. We wasted no time and effort as we all rushed to Janice's place to get all the props from there cause we left it in the safety of their home, for they live a few blocks away from school so yeah, we walked and ran through the hustle and bustle of Quiapo and I was in my 3-inch heels! Like a boss.

I and Charmaine!

We arrived at school just in time for the program. Series of events happened, but that didn't hinder us from doing a pretty good job. Although, compared to the upperclassmen, ours sucked! But whatever. That's why we're called freshies, right? Eventually, we'll get better and we'll learn how to adapt in the social jungle of  college.

While preparing the bushes

My dear Jevie, our leader

My bitch and I while we carry our props upstairs. Love ya!

First ever class picture!

A scene from our tableau! Florante and Laura  -- Edward and Inna

Vanity kills... BOREDOM! We had photo ops right after, at the lobby of the JPLhall. That was so ridiculous! Some photos were just too whacked, I was laughing so hard!

Embarrassing photo of yours truly!

VICTORIA! HAHAHA!

Your future diplomats

Only half of us are willing to take a photo. Haha! Hello Janice, Michelle and Charmaine!

Much better.

Whoever is that man on the picture, we're sorry we have to make fun of your portrait HAHA!

And another. Hahaha! Alleged family pic, lol!

Off we went to SM Manila to have our late lunch! But it was only I, Charmaine, Jans, Edward, Jevie and Chella who ate at Greenwhich. We shared lots of stories and learned lots of secrets, like we've been friends for the longest time!

The stairs going to the lower ground floor

Yay!

Now you know who's vain! I and Jans. ♥

With the tower coke Edward ordered. Huzzah!

Chella, Jans, Charmaine, Jowi. ♥

August 11, the day reality slapped us hard. Everything was just as complex as before...but the bond remained.   And some people were added to the bunch! How awesome can it get? And you guys have to agree with me; Charmaine, Jans, Chella, Jevie, Jinik, Elisha, Golda, Nicole, LéAnn, Charlene, Inna, Victoria, and the rest!

*HOPING THERE'S A COMPLETE PICTURE OF US*

Yes, I do miss my highschool friends and I keep on missing them everyday, and I have my college friends by my side whenever I feel alone. And here I am, looking forward to everyday. I am happy!

Photos courtesy of Jevilyn Mary Ruiz

A college-related blog entry

First day of college, and all I can say is "wow!". I never actually thought that it would be that great! Everything is just... unexpected.

I woke up at 4:30AM, got ready, then left for school at about 5:20. I reached school at... about 6: 30. I was early, and would never dare be late. I couldn't think of anything but "Sooo, this is how it feels to commute to school, huh?" cause my previous school is just 5 minutes away, I could even go to school a few minutes before the bell rings.

I've made friends already! I never thought that that would be easy. Haha! Sorry, cause all along I thought that I'd be forever alone in college. Heck, I was wrong. Was even gobsmacked, I've made TOOOO many friends! More than what I've expected, actually.

We had our flag-raising activity earlier! And that encouraged me to try out for the pepsquad. Lol, but that activity totally made my day cause I learnt that college rocks! I'm not even scared anymore.

After classes, we had this activity; an Amazing Race type of contest. My heels killed me! We were running all over the corridor just for that thing! And the result, I got blisters. Totally painful blisters. IT FREAKIN' HURTS. But I guess it's great that I sort of had an easy ticket to this club which can showcase my dancing skills. LOL.

Everything was just great, I'm just too indolent to tell how fine it went. Looking forward for tomorrow.

Summer, kind of wonderful

Summer `11 is about to end. All in all, it's one of the best summers I had so far so thank You, Lord! Tomorrow I'll go to college, and my heart couldn't stop pounding.

Cheers to the year that is!

Party like it is the end of the year

Asdfghjkl -- a word that best describe how great 2010 went. Wait, a word? No, it's not even a word... just something that would probably replace the word "great" because great isn't enough to sum how amazing everything went.


Unexpected things happened over the year -- yes, things. From good to bad, yay to nay, yadda yadda, the list goes on. It's just a hell of a roller coaster ride. I'm still enjoying it but it's about to end. Sigh. I have to move on, I guess. Another chapter of my life is on it's way and guess what? The first day of the year means 14 days to go til my birthday! I'm turning 16 and before that day comes, I just want to recall everything that happened throughout the year that went.


January shall be happy. ALWAYS! Like what I've mentioned earlier, it's my birth month! So as much as possible, no heartbreaks, tears and the like. Errr, irregardless of January 14, 2009 though. Hihi. Ok! My birthday went great, and the rest is as well. But the best thing about January is having no classes for 3 days because of our usual school fair! Yayyy!!! Upon learning that this is my last, I'm just glad that I made the most out of it. Polished nails, Rice in a box, Pizza hut, THE Campus Crush Booth (Which I was able to experience), Comedy Show something... everything was just great. A week after, Teacher's Day is celebrated! I was lucky - slash - unfortunate to be picked as one of the performers. Teehee. Whatever, let us move on.

February is love month. Hello, Valentines' Day is just around the corner! My most hated holiday of all... LOL! Kidding. Did I sound so bitter? Hoho, I'm not with someone else then but my eyes are full because of too much eye candies --  it's intramurals month as well! If you're talking 'bout team spirit, I have none for mine... but at least I enjoyed being with other sections, sorry!

March marks the end of the school year... and start of freedom! It's almost summer break, and I just had the grandest time on the first day of summer when St. Louis has a sort-of reunion at Quenny's place! But before all of that, we had Prom. Yes, PROOOOOM. It was that night where everybody gets glammed up and I swear, I was one of those girly girls then who left her sense of manhood somewhere.

April is a heatwave. That month is full of boredom as my retarded PC got busted by a freakin' virus. I've got nothing to do! So, I was going out frequently.  And oh, my Twitter's birthday falls on the same month! Hrhr, just saying.

May is the start of something new. Senior year is just about to start as enrollment period is lurking around the corner! And I was just flabbergasted when I saw my name on the first paper posted there. On the upper center of the paper are words which says "IV - ST. THOMAS" and I was like, "YAAAAAAAAYYY!!!" I'm in my dream section! But as I keep on browsing the freakin' paper, my cheers turned into boos when I realized that my barkada aren't in the same section as mine. AAAAAAAAAHHHH!!! While they're all sorted in the same section, each having a companion. Darned. But I never lose hope and kept my fingers crossed that being this section would be the best among the rest.

In June, you can hear the bells. School bells, that is! We're back to school! And if you want to see how my first day went, go here. Anyway, St. Thomas usn't that bad after all.! And that was the first thing that I proved.

July must be the month were Valentines' Day is moved. Joke! I just had this little crush on someone. Hihi. And my first ever mall escapade during the year happened on the 3rd day of the month! The gang went to SM North to hang out and ended up watching Toy Story 3. And that was just the greatest day that month.

August is just as crazy. UPCAT month!!! The experience was nerve-wracking and exciting combined. I just wished that I'll pass there though. Oh and, Buwan ng Wika! My class topped the first ever elimination of that event!!! We're just too unfortunate that we landed on the second place during the finals. Screw the freakin' shiznitty computer which was on mute Oh and, to top all that, I was one of the chosen ones who danced during the program. I've got new friends -- the Metallics!

September would have to be the liberating month. And yes, I'm talking about our Retreat! 3 days of peace, holiness, and quirkiness! Our classes bonded pretty well. That we even watched MALPRISAA together, lol! Volleyball was held in our school... that made the admiration grew stronger. LOOOOOOL, kay. And I almost forgot how our class topped the eliminations for History Month! Helluhvuh! Darned technicalities again, we landed 4th. But heck, we grew better.

October is suppose to be the holiest month but because traditions are changed, we weren't able to complete the 9 day novena. Sigh. But our procession was just as memorable -- it rained really hard! And that was a blessing. Perhaps it's good luck for our USTET weeks after. Let me pass, please!!!

November is most probably the IDK month. Looool, I can't remember anything! But I'm sure it's the English month, and loads of activities paved our way! Our class wasn't able to bag prizes unlike before, but I can say we did great. NO, I'M NOT BIASED!

December is the cherry on top. Aside from love life progresses *ehem* class relationships were developed as well. Yayyy, and perhaps I couldn't elaborate this any further. It was just too cool for words! And it was the happiest month, bow.

I hope 2011 would be just as great. Not just mine, your's as well! Thanks 2010,you made my life worth living.

xx, Jowi ♥

P.S.: Happy New Year! From my couzern and I. :)