Perfect didn't feel so perfect

After clicking “Random” repeatedly, this picture I posted a few months ago went out.

Okay, I haven’t gotten over it yet. Despite D’s presence, I still miss how happy/ giddy/ excited I was whenever J would talk/ stand near/ (whatever sweet) to me.

I loved how I felt then. I don’t know why the heck would I feel the contrary of it whenever those things would occur now. And I hate how I sort of abhor him. Whyyyy.

Trying to fit a square into a circle was no life.
*09 - 11, 9: 35PM*