Rumor has it she ain't got your love anymore

Let me start by saying that I don't intend to be bitter and this happened once and it might not occur again so excuse this post and God Bless my soul.

Out of curiosity, I checked his (ex) girlfriend's Facebook profile a few days ago. It seemed weird because her "In a Relationship" status wasn't there and their pictures together were deleted. I hypothesized, "Did they broke up?" Did they? Or they didn't? Just when I was about to jump into conclusions...

The day after, I confirmed the news. They did broke up. They really did. And that's the reason why my ever revengeful self tweeted "Weh? Anu yan? Break Na? PARRRTTTYYYY!!! At hindi dahil single ka na, dahil mas wasted ka pa sakin. HAHAHAHA, LOSER!!!" Ha! I know I sound mean, but actually I'm happy because the reality that I wanted is finally happening. Harharhar. But like what I said, it's not because I still love him or whatever, but because he's just as hurt as I was a few months ago. I think it's safe to say that it's not just we're even, but justice is served.

I don't know how filthy his intentions were but let me just rub it in his face that I have gone forth and nobody's left to comfort him. Oh and, that's an awesome birthday - slash - Christmas gift. xx!

Wonderstruck

So there's this boy, and the way he smile makes me smile. He makes me conscious and nervous, but I like it when he's around. His laugh is just as cute as his smile, especially when it's my jokes that he's laughing at. Oh and, did I mention that I melt everytime his eyes meet mine? It's just so surreal that I can't stop myself from caving in. *Heavenly sigh* He's just another reason why I look forward to school every single day. He bid me goodbye once, but it played in my head for a thousand times. He's my sort of inspiration, he's the reason why I try my very best to look less embarrassing, he's someone I won't allow to see me being caught off guard. He makes me cheesy in a way that I think it's corny. That's dangerous. It's one surefire sign of saying that I'm pretty much infatuated. So there's this boy, and I think I like him.

And she speaks...

I've been blogging for years now. 5 years if my memory serves me right. The first one is actually on Friendster Blogs with the domain "o0ojoano0o". I know, it's shameful. But what's more shameful is the fact that I post in sticky caps. HAHAHAHAHA, it sure is jeje but I have avid avid readers and they love my blog! Then I moved to "joannepauline04" on Multiply. I think I improved there. It was active during my "Ms. Essayist" days and quite a number of people are always tuned in. I was a blabbermouth and I post a lot, one time I even got in serious trouble! Boo myself for netiquette ignorance. A year of activeness went, then a Tumblr account of the same name was born. Good thing it's changeable so from there it became "jowideep", "jowibleedstherainbow", and currently it's "thebabblemachine". At some point I even changed it to "asdfghjoannexoxo" and "the-babble-machine" so stalkers - slash - enemies won't find out what I post about them. Ha! But now it's fixed, TBM 'til who knows when. I also have my share of abandoned blogs! And most of it are on Blogger. Currently existing is "joannelalim" which has posts about stuffs I share in full details and things I could never ever forget. Yes, this! It's more personal, I think. But my private blog is the most personal of all! Uh uh, don't get excited just yet. It's password-protected and there's no way I'll ever show it to the world. Yeah!

I've really learnt a lot from blogging. Aside from netiquettes, I have to consider proper grammar. My way with words enhanced , and even my vocabulary! I know bloggers who speak English fluently and I check their blog for inspiration. Basically, I learnt, learn, and will be learning from them. Not the stalker type, though! Hihi. There's this thing I call "the art and sacredness of privacy". I don't name people especially when I have nothing good to say about them. Who would want to be sued for libel? Not me! Related to that are super personal pictures which never had the chance to be posted because of the same reason. I really want to, but I can't! Before posting, my initial thoughts were on the people who might get in trouble for those so yeah, caution! Aside from the aforementioned, let us include themes and add-ons. They can never be ignored! I'm a minimalist and I tend to keep things neat and clean so I use plain backgrounds. By that, readers will be more focused on the post itself, which I think is the most important thing on a blog. Whenever possible, I add pictures on my blog so it won't look bland. It comes in handy especially when  I'm describing something or I want to show something breath - taking. Last is, of course, credits. Nobody says yes to plagiarism! Unless they plagiarize, lol. As much as possible, acknowledge the owner of the photo, video, or whatever media you'll post unless it's officially yours. It's a must and you should take note. Take. Note!

I love blogging! In one way or another, it helped me broke out of my shell. I had experiences and learnt a lot of things from it. It's flattering when people read my blog and say that they find it great when I know for a fact it sucks. But it feels good to know that people are waiting for you to share something about your life and they think it's exciting. And they care! Sometimes they care so much that when I post something depressing they give me their piece of advice. Sweet! It goes to show that not everyone you meet on the internet are bastards. Haha!

This post is for everyone who thinks I can blog. Thank you for appreciating  my work of art and for making me feel loved! Virtual hugs and kisses for everyone!

Thoughts Remain Unshared

I have been drafting almost all of my posts. If not online, they’re on my first sem binder, a random paper I got from anywhere, my diary - slash - notebook, or even my spare phone. Inspiration strikes anywhere! It’s the same reason why as much as possible, I try to chase the creative I’ve constructed on my mind ‘cause too often than not, they slip away. As a result, I end up having nothing to write. For me, that is equal to one sucky blog. Another thing that sucks, I draft a lot but they never had the chance to be posted. Hopefully, I’d be able to. One day… one day where I’m not too indolent and busy being lazy.

Yes, my blog sucks. Bigtime.