First of Many

I never expected it to be like that. It was thrilling-- it had my heartbeat halting and my subconscious yearning. I can't exactly define how it was for me but I felt my heart do somersaults and my stomach flipped. It was crazy. Crazy wonderful, even. Inexplicable... irresistible, that I can't help but ask for more. I thought it won't be paving my way that soon but heck, I don't care. It was fine, everything felt right. It's like having my cravings when I'm badly starving-- just what I need and want.

PHOTODUMP: Badet's 18th Birthday Celebration

Sooo, a close friend held her debut last night at Hotel H2o somewhere in Manila and-- voila! Here's a blogpost dedicated to our vanity. I won't be posting lotsa pictures though, just a few of which I looked decent in. Teehee.

DISCLAIMER: Photos aren't mine, they're Danela Bautista's and Suzanne Ubaldo's. Thank you, Dane and Zhayne!

At Charry's dorm. Ready to go!

With my girl, Rhea.

Candid. This was pre-party, actually. I know, I looked stress, and that's because I was caught in the middle of a misunderstanding with my baby, Janice. We're fine now, though!

With Rhea, Suzanne and Agatha while waiting for the debutant!

5/16 of Full Force! This was during the duration of the program, I guess. With Ralph, Charry, Sam, and Jans.

Two of my bestfriends, my boy, and Pong right there but concealed, had a little something for Badet so yeah, they were at the stage, singing.

With you-know-who, my you-know-what-his-role-in-my-life-is. ♥

After everything else. With 3/5 of Awesome Foursome! And you know what's crazy? We're all wearing lace and we didn't even talked about it.

With my girls! Almost everyone's single-- pick one! Lol.

With Badet, the birthday girl! And Full Force. And some people from my school and I don't really know them.

With Charry, Kisses, and Sam! This was at the dance showdown I guess. HAHA. Guess who won.

At Liquid! The after-party we all went to. Guess who had Vanilla Milkshake and was reading 50 Shades instead. Thanks a lot, dad and your extended security, my future boyf.

Closing this blog with a photo of yours truly. Hihi. They wanted it to be colorful so I wore striking orange and blue. Teehee.

I had fun and I know everybody does as well. Thank you, Badet! We owe you one. Be one of the fiercest girls out there 'cause I know you're an amazona. Love you!

Part-time?

Supposedly, I'll be posting something about how our first month went but then my feels got screwed up and I needed to vent, so...



I really don't know what to say. I felt backstabbed. And I felt like shit, if I may add. I'm not even sure if I'm just overthinking or what, but my subconscious has been telling me that I'm right-- that all these fuckery's about how I was ditched, how I was disposed by my own friends. I know them. They're mean as hell. Yes, I'm mean as well, but do they have to do that to me? I mean, we're friends, how come?

Oh god, I hate second guessing.