The Unthinkable, Unexplainable

So, this is love.

When he just sits beside you and your heart starts thumping though neither of you is utt'ring a word, when he slips his hand into yours and you feel smitten-ly uncomfy yet you're lovin' every second in that moment, when he caresses you and you feel his warmth; from his seemingly protective arms to the warmth of his soul, when he sneaks you out to your favorite place to seize the moment you're in, when backreading your convos makes your heart feel jumpy and giddy, when he talks to you via chat or text and you still feel that fleeting feeling you get when you converse personally, when he's happy that you're happy, when he made you cry because you learnt that he's  asked to meet some girl and he chose not to 'cause he'd rather stick with you, when he effortlessly makes you happy, and last, when he tells you he loves you and you know you just got to say you love him too 'cause without a doubt, he's the closest thing to what you "want" and "need" and you could not ask for more.

If that is it, I 'd love to fall inlove forever.

Something Special

Weeks had passed since the last time I felt genuinely happy... I wonder what's up with today and that feeling came knocking on my door once again. What?

Nothing seems to be special until we got out of our English class. Speaking of English class, I qualified for the spelling contest! And my cutesy gay teacher told me; "I feel like you're gonna win! You're warm..." and blah blah blah, they're music to my ears! Gaaahhh, I just hope he's right. Crossing my fingers!

We were super slightly obliged to watch the ASEAN debate earlier. And what better way to cut the boring program off by having my "boyfriend" to whisk me away and go tripping with him within the vicinity of Intramuros! Hihi. But that's not my point! The reason why I blogged is because of my emotional investment feels-- my place in Intramuros.

Sadly, I wasn't able to take a share-worthy photo of it. But if I have to picture it then, I'd describe it as a really nice place where you're forced to forget about everything. EVERYTHING. Seriously, you guys! It felt like time warp. Even Narnia! It's like an entirely different world and it's just beyond amazing. Truth be told, but I never appreciated such kind of things. Until now, of course. It's just... asdfghjkl, too wonderful for words. And having to share the moment with a really nice (and sincere) friend added up to its majesty. Ahhhh, now I know where I'll go if ever I'll think about suicide and stuff. Joke, no way!

Ahhh, I don't know... Today was just incredibly great and I feel like blogging it. *obligatory heart*

Fourth September Feels

A couple days ago, I was browsing the world wide web for articles - slash - blog entries - slash - whatevers about this so-called "Emotional Investment". Neh, I was just curious. I kept on saying these two words during the past few weeks and eeeeekkk! I use it everytime they ask me about how I feel for this, uhm, person I've been blogging about lately. Teehee. Like, "I don't like him, but I've got emotional investments though". Yeahhh something like that, but ew, let's veer away from that topic. Please.

Unfortunately, I never found the perfect post. *sigh* But look, I found something from "The Musings of MrJeremyT"! He mentioned;

Funny thing about serious emotional investments though, besides the fact that they are more often than not one-sided, is the affect they can have on your mood. The smallest thing can make you the happiest person, or the saddest.

True, true. I could attest to that! And speaking of attesting and shit, it's actually the reason why I updated this all of a sudden. Just... ah. I wanted to vent about "some things"! The problem is, it's all in my head and worse, I can't put them into words! It's making me go bananas.

...Let's just say that today wasn't as good as yesterday. Today's just as crappy as yesterday was infinite. And I don't even know why I incorporated the word "infinite", I guess it's because I just finished reading Stephen Chbosky's Perks and it has some kind of an effect to me. Like how the littlest things he does affects me and they can either make me sad or happy. And today's not about the latter, which is just so not f***ing nice, I think. Just ahhh. I can't explain why this is happening and I'm not in the mood to grammar check so bye.

Ultimate

You just gotta love that sweet, sincere someone who swore that he'll always be there for you. You gotta love him 'cause he's always there to carry your bag, comb your hair, treat you when you're broke, and check if you're okay. He's happy when you're happy, sad when you're sad, and he feels what you feel. He's worried when there's something wrong and he won't leave until you're feeling better. He'll always laugh at your jokes and he's game with whatever you're on. Nonetheless, he'll tell if you're going overboard. He'd never want to put you in trouble 'cause he cares for you beyond much.

When he does, he'll tell you that he misses you. He's fine with being your pseudo-boyfriend, not to mention that while he's at it, he'll even make it feel true. He'll greet you on your "anniversary", hold your hand, hug you, and tell you all sorts of mushy things. And when you're mad at him, don't expect him to say sorry. That's because he won't just say it, he'll show it. With effort! Oh and, he'll make you feel comfortable-- awkward silences are non-existent, even after hearing him say that he loves you, yes.

You just gotta love that sweet, sincere someone whom you may not be romantically attached with, still loves you no matter what.

P.S. This isn't about love, this is about some guy who loves me and I love him back. And we're not even inlove with each other. Haha.

P.P.S. The title's Ultimate because of Lindsay Lohan's movie OST. There's this line that goes "You're the kind of friend who always bends when I'm broken, like remember when you took my heart and put it back together again." Hehez.

P.P.P.S. Yes, we're just friends. With possibilities? Don't know.