Writing Sleepy

I swear, if provoked to the fullest, I might consider the unthinkable. But kidding aside, I think I already do... Or not. Whatever! Just the thought of it makes me want to slash my wrist or shoot myself in the head. Aaaccckkkk. This can't be happening!

I blame my friends for this insanity. I know I got rid of this feeling, but it's starting to rear its misleading face again! Lol, what for? It was never serious anyway. It's all fun and games, feelings are excluded-- or rather, I'm trying to exclude my feelings. I'm weak, I can't do this all by myself. I'm afraid I might fall without knowing it. You know how much I can't afford to have another heartbreak this time... and there you go, I started stroking on my sentences 'cause I know I'll hate myself in the future if I found out that I typed those. Not to mention, it's all I that could think about lately. Ewww, social suicide. I'm hating myself now. I'm not assuming though.

Now how about my dear "yonder-er"? Two weeks had passed since I met him, to where we ran low on sparks I guess. I didn't felt a thing or two and it's a bit questionable. Nehhh, but at least I knew that it's not the real deal. Don't get me wrong though, everything that I wrote back in summer came from the heart. He's the guy, he's perfect. He's all that I wanted. If I'm going to like anyone, it would be him. Oh and, he's the reason why I didn't get any grade lower than 80 during the prelims. He was my inspiration! (Heart, hearts all over)

Let's get this over with. I can't fall and that's final. Why? Because I have to fall for *, not **.

...Yeah, but you can't make your heart feel something it won't. Am I right?

From an Enervated College Student

I knew I was right. There will come a time that I'll start abhorring every inch of school and school works because of the haphazard every subject has in store for us. And oh, sleep! It has been running away from my hands since the day we went back to this cleverly disguised hell which is school... I just miss it so much. You should have seen me, I'm slowly turning into a zombie. That was a joke though, but really I looked so tired and I'm always half-awake that everybody starts noticing it.

Thank God for this rest day. I only have an exam left and that is Spanish, which means I have the entire day to study! Speaking of exams, I hope all my results were as good as that in English... and that's because I got the highest score among everyone in class. Ha! I deserve a self five, I know!

I was about to blog last Saturday's happenings but I'm quite busy so... yeah. Hihi. I guess we have to wait until the end of the month for that tabulation!

And I'm leaving you all with a photo of yours truly, using my friend's red lipstick which I adore! xx

It's Not Everyday that I Get to See You, Right?

Wait, woah. Lemme get that straight. It's for my highschool friends, not for someone. Errr... but it can be, don't you think?

Nah, just kidding.

One more week to go before the longest night of my life! And when I said long, I mean loooonnnngggg. Two parties in one night, opposing themes, venues located in two different cities, highschool and college friends -- sick! I have options, sure, but I've decided to take on both. And why not?

Eenie meanie miney mo... LOL, I kid! But anyway, here are proofs that I'll be the most sought-after friend on 14th July! Heee. But seriously though, it just goes to show that I've been a nice friend. Ha! Joke. Lord, will you take it to the next level and turn me into a girlfriend? Thank You! But You know I'm kidding. And hoping. Mehehehe.

This is a lousy update. Sarreh. But I'm jittery, yes!