Just get back up if it knocks you down

I don't know what I did to deserve this kind of life. I hate how everything seems to fall apart when I should be having the time of my life. I can't believe I'm saying this but... fuck my life. I don't know how much more I can take. I keep on inhaling hate when (I think) all I ever do is breathe out almost every love from my body.

Perhaps this is the reason why I pretend to be someone I'm not. People think that I'm the most euphoric person they ever met because of my sunny disposition, jokes, yadda yadda; little did they know that I'm a two-faced liar who can't even force to fake a smile when I'm at home. I hate it! And I hate how jealousy is eating me up. I want to do this, that, have this, that, but for some reasons, I can't. And most of the time, my parents are to blame. Fck! And I also hate how abhorrent I think they are. It just doesn't seem right.

Hoping I'll feel better soon.

It's Fearless

10th August 2011. Props making - 3rd day.

The day started great. I couldn't hide my giddiness! It was like the first time since who knows when that I got excited to go to school ever since I started going to college. Yay! Thank God for my new friends - slash - alliances, for they are the reason why I'm motivated to go to school.

The escapade started at 9AM. We actually begged our Math prof to allow us to go out! Good thing he agreed. We wasted no time and effort as we all rushed to Janice's place to get all the props from there cause we left it in the safety of their home, for they live a few blocks away from school so yeah, we walked and ran through the hustle and bustle of Quiapo and I was in my 3-inch heels! Like a boss.

I and Charmaine!

We arrived at school just in time for the program. Series of events happened, but that didn't hinder us from doing a pretty good job. Although, compared to the upperclassmen, ours sucked! But whatever. That's why we're called freshies, right? Eventually, we'll get better and we'll learn how to adapt in the social jungle of  college.

While preparing the bushes

My dear Jevie, our leader

My bitch and I while we carry our props upstairs. Love ya!

First ever class picture!

A scene from our tableau! Florante and Laura  -- Edward and Inna

Vanity kills... BOREDOM! We had photo ops right after, at the lobby of the JPLhall. That was so ridiculous! Some photos were just too whacked, I was laughing so hard!

Embarrassing photo of yours truly!

VICTORIA! HAHAHA!

Your future diplomats

Only half of us are willing to take a photo. Haha! Hello Janice, Michelle and Charmaine!

Much better.

Whoever is that man on the picture, we're sorry we have to make fun of your portrait HAHA!

And another. Hahaha! Alleged family pic, lol!

Off we went to SM Manila to have our late lunch! But it was only I, Charmaine, Jans, Edward, Jevie and Chella who ate at Greenwhich. We shared lots of stories and learned lots of secrets, like we've been friends for the longest time!

The stairs going to the lower ground floor

Yay!

Now you know who's vain! I and Jans. ♥

With the tower coke Edward ordered. Huzzah!

Chella, Jans, Charmaine, Jowi. ♥

August 11, the day reality slapped us hard. Everything was just as complex as before...but the bond remained.   And some people were added to the bunch! How awesome can it get? And you guys have to agree with me; Charmaine, Jans, Chella, Jevie, Jinik, Elisha, Golda, Nicole, LéAnn, Charlene, Inna, Victoria, and the rest!

*HOPING THERE'S A COMPLETE PICTURE OF US*

Yes, I do miss my highschool friends and I keep on missing them everyday, and I have my college friends by my side whenever I feel alone. And here I am, looking forward to everyday. I am happy!

Photos courtesy of Jevilyn Mary Ruiz

Sweet escape to the train on the second trip

Coincidences, they happen. It's either you had that instance to invigorate for that moment and treasure for the rest of your life, or you had it to feel hatred... and to learn to bury the hatchet and move on with your life rather than to express loathe and look stupid.