Hope You're Smitten

To my favorite inbox notif,
here i am greeting you a happy birthday,
wishing it'd be your favorite notif as well
out of the hundred greetings you'd prolly get.

Some sappy birthday message I made for a friend who wants to greet the girl he likes.

She doesn't deserve my quality writing tho.

To the Birthday Boy

Twenty years of existence. Twenty years and so far, I've spent three birthdays with you.

The first one was when I was still trying to figure out my feelings for you. I was assuming and I guess you were to me as well. You invited me over and I was somewhere between being stoked and being nervous because I thought it was only the two of us. I thought it was going to be my first real date and I couldn't wait to share it with you... until you told me you were inviting her also. False alarm. All the butterflies in my stomach apparently has to leave. I was almost devastated but then I thought; fine. We're friends, what do I expect. But still, fate seemed like it paved its way for us to work our barely existing relationship out. She was gone for awhile 'cause I instructed her to buy our surprise gift (hehe, which I slightly planned actually) and we ended up talking and talking and talking and it felt like melting into each other's souls through the stories we shared while we waited for her to come back. Oh how I wish she didn't. LOL. Anyway, I knew you felt it 'cause I did, and it was just one of the instances wherein I knew you're going to play an important role in my life. And you did, you became my boyfriend five months after.

A year after, nothing grand happened except that our feelings bloomed despite the simplicity of your celebration. I had no gift for you but mom had and we're glad you liked the cordon bleu. Jollibee was great though it's far from exclusive. Sharing the moment with you felt exclusive.

This year, things improved quite a bit. I brought you cupcakes and I'm glad you liked them. We dined and talked like we usually do and I'm glad we did. You told me we can celebrate some other time but I think it will lack essence 'cause today is your birthday and it's much appropriate to celebrate today 'cause it's more special that way. I love you, I wish I'm right where you are.

More birthdays with you to come, please?

May these Memories Break Our Fall

OVERDUE POST. I apologize for being too busy and for being too indolent at the same time.

I am taking this moment, promising you this-- I'll stand by you forever but if god forbid, I'll twist fate so it would step in. I will never say goodbye. I'll point to your picture and tell my children your name, how the crowds went wild, and your hopes for them to shine. Long live!

June 6, 2014; one of the happiest nights of my life. Yes, you can tell me now that I'm the lucky one.

Apparently, Taylor Swift flew to Asia for the last leg of her tour. Y'all know how I mourned a few years ago for missing Speak Now World Tour but then again, I dunno what to say since the twist of fate when it all broke down... lol. I'm still so speechless after everything! I mean, being able to buy tickets despite the "hunger games", being able to win VIP tickets from Cornetto, and finally, being able to see her live and upclose! Everything is still surreal!

Commencing Photodump. 3...2...1...

This is when our hearts started racing. There was like a war-like sound whatsoever and then boom! Red lights, curtains, and State of Grace's intro! Taylor's silhouette was there and oiehderowihferiwhfir. No photos of that 'cause I only have a video which I can't upload. Hihi.

RE-E-E-E-ED! Taylor gave her hat away... to someone else. Whoever you are, lucky you! And here she is, singing the name of her tour. With instruments of the same color! Ahhhh!

The Lucky One performance! Old Hollywood theme, very fabulous! Not really my favorite song off the album but this is one cool performance.

She changed wardrobes and is now wearing a polka-dotted skirt! She delivered her speech and sang Mean using her banjo.

22 is such an energetic spiel! Jelly of other Swifties who get to touch her hand tho, huhu. She went B-side and sang acoustic versions of Fearless, You Belong With Me, and Sparks Fly! Oh, noticed her shirt? It says "MANILA"!

I Knew You Were Trouble! See the costume change? The queen's oozing hot! Her super rad dance moves and that costume totally ousted her from the country scene but hey, what's not to love?

ALL TOO WELL!!! Apparently, she didn't cry like she did in other countries. We don't know why but heck, she smiled!

Ahhhh, Love Story! Nothing but memories. This is where it all started! This song just takes me back in time. Too nostalgic, actually.

WEEEEE ARE NEVER EVER EVERRRRR GETTING BACK TOGETHER! The song marks the end of the show! I hope we still get back together tho, love! See you on your fifth album tour Manila!

Clockwork

Life is a series of tests. In my 19 years of existence, the most important thing I tend to always forget (or ignore, even) is the art of perfect timing. Having a short temper and a bad case of social anxiety made matters worse all because I can't help but feel intimidated and sad most of the time. And when I said sad I meant, the kind of sad that takes a loooooot of  time. Intimidated, well, I am beyond insecure and I considered not going out anymore. Geez, do I sound so bad?

I told you a lot of times about being left behind by "that person I liked" when we were bound to ride the ferriswheel. To say that all I felt was nothing but excruciating emotional pain is an understatement. That and my first ever Taylor Swift concert experience --which I never get to experience, by the way, because "they" left me-- are the reasons why I always felt so insignificant. I merely gave up and moved on until I finally had the chance to redeem all the pain it caused me. Surprises, yes, they come unexpectedly.

It turns out God is emptying our hands for something better. I may had one of the worst heartbreaks in my life as regards to the ferriswheel but in it, I also shared my first real kiss with the only guy who loved me for me. As for Taylor, news just in! Selecta Cornetto called me up yesterday saying I won VIP tickets to the Red Tour this June!!! Ahhhh! Call me blessed not lucky for this is all from God! All thanks to Him! Truth be told, I was kinda down the whole week because of something I got rejected of and then this!!! I vow to never lose hope anymore because He blesses the deserving people.

Yearning

I want to feel something.

I want to be someone.

I want to be happy. I want to chase my dreams and live in them. I want to do it for the rest of my life. I don't want to be exhausted from work, I want exhaustingly blissful from doing what I love the most. I want to turn these dreams into reality.

I want to write. I want to have something published. I want it to be relevant, or better yet, a best-seller. I want to go back in time and take a chance on journalism or creative writing. I want to be a writer for the longest time. I want to be a writer.

I want to be melancholic. I want to feel sad from being rejected. I want to be frustrated so as to be motivated. I want to feel like I'm losing hope. I want to try out talking to God more fervently. I want to be stronger.

I want to be a genius. I want to be a diplomat. I want to be an ambassador. I want to travel the world while making a stand. I want to be the hero in the world of diplomacy. I want to be less indolent now and start involving myself. I want to belong.

I want to build a home. I want to be a wife, a mom. I want to fulfill him, I want him to be happy. I want to make love. I want to bear a child out of  love. I want us to be the best parents. I want them to be the best children, too. I want him to build a family with me.

I want to grow old with him. I want us to die together so we will never be grievous for missing each  other. I want to hold his wrinkled hand and kiss his wrinkled forehead. I want to spend my whole life with him.

I want things to be the way I want them to be.

If not, then, I just want to be happy by writing the greatest things about him. He's what I want and that all it takes.

Eleven Months of La La La Love

I know I never blogged about how this started so you probably don't know that we try to remember every 15s, 24s, and 31s in each month because those dates are milestones in this relationship; 15 is for the day it became official, 24 is for when we first admitted our feelings, and 31 is for that fake monthsary we had back when we were "just two consenting adults having fun", lol.

Ok, that's too much, let's move on. We went on a Saturdate 'cause le boyf has project commitments and I was (supposedly) going to review for HPT class. We obliged of course, but we don't know what to do after. Apparently, the weather's too good to be put to waste so we spent time at our secret, special place (AKA Narnia) doing the usual *cough cough* cuddling and stuff *cough* . After which, we headed to SM to eat! We tried Kebabers out of curiosity and swear, I've been raving to come back since the time we left! Food was really good and I can't wait to have another round of meal soon. Then we strolled until our feet hurt and time passed. I sure want to take him with me and probably spend the night but we can't cause we have no personal place yet. Teehee. In its most innocent sense, if I may add. But this day is just too special that I had to blog it. Ehhhh! *faints* All the hugging and kissing and laughing was good but nothing beats feeling the sincerity encrypted in his every action. Swear, I'll forever be grateful for this man. Forever. Cheers to our eleventh month!

Merriam's 18th Birthday Photodump!

A few weeks ago, we attended our friend Merriam's legal party celebration! The theme was vintage and of course, we were expected to arrive in such outfits. The party went as expected too-- it was vintage all over! Her dance number, the setting, the prods, her cake, her outfit, her hair, everything! It was super nice and I wish I had a debut party too! Nevertheless, I enjoyed it and I'm sure everyone else did too. It was a night to remember most especially for the debutante. Belated happy birthday, Yam! I love you, girl! You're one awesome friend and I hope we'll stay the same through the years. ♥

Photos from the photo booth (c) Merriam, party photos (c) Jevie, in room photos (c) Vicky

My only photo with the lovely debutante! Ewww, I look trashy.

Obligatory portrait photo to end this post! xx

The 'R' in Perfection

Love, you are perfect.

You are smart-- you know things I don't and you taught me things I should know. You know how to bear with me and how to make me love you more, and the most important thing is, you have shown me what perfection is all about; you in totality.

You are dreamy. You make girls jealous of me with the things you do. You are nice and respectful, not just to me but to everybody else. You are the guy that every girl wanted. You are limited edition, a collector's item, a one-of-a-kind thing we'd totally die for. You are mine, my prized possession.

You are heavenly. You are just the right amount of cute, hot, and handsome combined. Whatever they say, you'll always be my hotshot handsome cutie-patootie and I have you aaaaaaaalllllll for myself. *wink*

My love, you are beyond everything you thought you are. Ask yourself, would I love you if you weren't that great? You know that I settle for nothing but the best. Now stand  up, dust it off, and remember that you are one great person and I love everything about you-- the good and the bad side, all your assets and faults, and what does and doesn't matter. I love you!

Ain't Awry February

Another month went by and I just have to post an update to keep my promise of keeping this alive. *Sighs*

Well, hello there. Love month's about to end and oh, there goes March! Which means school's about to end anytime soon. Do I hear a whooping yay? Oh yes, there goes my jam right there. Oooohhh, delightful music at its finest.

So, what have I been up to?

First off, we had our Midterm exams. I know, I have to do better! I myself am disappointed with this too, ugh. Think positive!

It's my first Valentine's Day with a date! Of course, you know who I was with-- my R! And here's the only VDay-related photo taken that day. At home with the doughnuts he gave me! Yay to diabetayyy!

I actually got involved in a fight with my bestfriends a few days before V Day. I swear, it was the worst week of my life! Good thing though, we were able to settle it on that day and ta-da! United once again.

Finally! Natuloy din after three failed plans. Full Force went to Star City!!! It was helluva day and I love that I spent it very well.

Back to school madness: It's election time once again! A4S took part in the iFamily-- Partido Independiente's group of campaign managers. Oh, and guess what? The partido is all in! Congrats, guys! And here are your happy campaigners from IR-257!

I guess that's it. February's about to end and I'm glad I filled it with good memories. Check! And here goes my most recent photo with blockmates! Weewhoop! Tell me I look less shittier than usual. Ha!

Photos from: Pamela Lalim, HeavenlyShot Photobooth, Krishna Kemchandani, Badet Bolinao, Rhea Susi, Angela Sicangco, Jhonna Seat, and Charmaine Cayaban -- THANKS!