Swimming In The Sea of Sunshine-y - Sad Thoughts

He - whom - I - like sang PNE's "Sorry na" for me!!! Why the heck can't they -  whom - I - love - and - I - consider - as - my - bestfriends do the same?
*06 - 30, 5:30P.M.*

What's Not And What's Hot

I actually thought about cooling down for the sake of everybody's silence.But after all what happened, I regretted the fact that it even crossed my mind. Screw thy social misfits.

Being stranded on school rocks, specially if you're with people who knows how to have fun. Ooh-la-la, I was with Brenz, Donne, Luigi, Zita, Shenna, April, Karylle, Lady and Jazaj while venturing our creepy campus to look for a dry place. Yuh, and we all walk barefoot on the ankle-high water-dipped ground floor. I was so proud of myself, Zita became more than an acquaintance now.

Rewind during Lunch time, I cried my heart out after giving in to my feelings. I can't actually forget how stupid I looked. Screw them misfits, they'll have a taste of their own medicine soon. Am I mean or what? Or I guess I just had enough of incarcerating my mean girl ego and the urge of releasing it just came? Hrrr, I have no idea but it seems like I'm already bashing.

Sorry, this sounded like a hate blog. YOU DON'T KNOW HOW FREAKIN' UPSET I AM.

"Oh honey, you're so barking at the wrong tree right now, don't you". xx.

*06 - 30, 1:33A.M.*

When The Going Gets Tough

June is drawing closer to its end. I just loathed how everything seems to be balanced then! Until now, where things are getting pretty screwed. By the way, this is a happy >> sad post.

My heart is freakin' fine. HE IS THE GREATEST, EVER. Though signals aren't clear yet. But he never failed to make me smile ever since the 15th of June. Like for this instance, he was shouting my name when I'm just behind him. Yeah, and I was like dedfoefof, I was left feeling infatuated. And when I got mad at him for pissing me off, he sang this song with a "Sorry na kung nagalit ka di naman sinasadya" lyric with his friends as his backup. Yadda yadda, I have lots here... but I'd keep them to myself. Bulgar!

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO APPROACH MY FRIENDS, FML. I don't know who's stupid but whatever, I'M GOING TO SELF DESTRUCT.

I could really use a wish right now. xx.
*06 - 28, 7: 52PM*

Fried Days Are Over

Glad that I overcame this week with such happiness! Though, some things got totally screwed. My heart's sort of broken, for real.

I lost my friends. Or not? I don't know, but we had this misunderstanding earlier. I felt bad after seeing my classmates being fetched by their respective clique or friend who were waiting right outside our room, while I was searching for mine where you can find somewhere along the corridor. Far from my room. Not really! But I wish they would at least wait for me right outside my room, TOO, and never comply with a "Masikip dun eh" response because I never complained anything about waiting outside their rooms which is very much crowded since it's nearing the exit. Blah blah blah. *Cogitates on how good - slash - bad of a friend am I*

We had our first mass for this school year too! It's hot and all and everything, but we ignored the heat for the sake of this school year's abundance. Oh well.

Lunch time, I was still with April and Jazaj who kept me company after the misunderstanding. Guilt, why don't you elude me so? Hahaha, hello years.

We had our second meeting for Spanish class! I don't know why the heck I'd tremble whenever Señor Javier would call names. Don't want to be called, perhaps? Yes yes yes. I'm shame-o-phobic, LOL.

After all our subjects were done, we were incarcerated inside our room to be oriented by CAT officers. CAT was... *end*! We were asked to never mention anything about everything that happened. Yes, or else I'll die sooner and that'll be the end of my career. Anyways, the "SANTIAGO!" scream at the dismissal is ♥. And I guess Bamp got the hots for it that he seized my shoulder and screamed at my ear. "Sir, yes, sir! Permission to dismiss, sir!" Something something something.

I was suppose to go to a reunion party after class with Andrea but anger management got in the way so buh-bye reunion. I along with April, Jazaj and Karylle went to the nearby shake stand to chill when Julius and Jhenny came. So we were there for an hour or so and... and... I SAW BABY BROTHER! Hihihi. This is the second time, I guess. The first one was last week. Kay, will earn guts to talk to him. LOL, not.

It was pitch-black during the last 5 hours. Brownout! Sucks, I know. I'm planning to sleep but I never accomplished it because of the heat. Now's the time. xx.

*06 - 26, 1: 08A.M.*

Thursdays, Totally

I just feel like telling everyone how weird my Thursday went.

St. Thomas, of course, was left downstairs while the praying of the rosary is going on. There are times that ginang would allow us to sit on the tiled whatsoevers beside the school canteen but the moment we stopped praying, we'll get to stand for the rest of the prayer. Asdfghjkl. 


My heart was beating superbly fast when we entered our room. English class! Ohmygoshedieqhdued, I can just imagine how Mrs. Mendoza would transform and scream at me telling how such a failure our reporting was. Yeah, I was worried like that. And for that, I haven't noticed that I was busy daydreaming - slash- staring at a blank space until someone called my name. Oh, it was just Jem asking what we're gonna do for our Physics report. "Joanne... Joanne... Joanne! Hahawak lang ako ah, ikaw na magsalita." "Ah oo, sige."

Had some presentations for Filipino class. Know what, I was laughing secretly the whole time! Some of my classmates didn't took the task seriously, that's why.

Whenever I'd speak infront, I would usually get blocked or something. AND I ALMOST SCREWED UP OUR PHYSICS REPORT, FOR CRYING OUT LOUD. Yay for Jem who saved my life after cracking everyone up!

JOWI: *whispers* Mag-introduce ka dali!

JEM: Good morning everyone, we're from group 1 and we're here to discuss about technology.

MS. LABS: Teka, ba't ganyan yang collage nyo, di naka-paste, ano ba yan?

JEM: Collage po.

CLASS: *laughs*

Whew, that was close. I pulled through and made a nice and petty explanation. Yaahhh.

Fire and Earthquake drills were done at the second and third periods. Despite sultriness, we are obliged to go outside the campus and fall in line SJEIDEIWHW we all smelled like sweat.

Had a test for Math then report for English after. Had the best "f*ckyeah" moment ever! Our report was... right! Perfecto! Bravo! YON. What happened was a contrary to what I had in mind.

Had song practices in preparation for our mass on Friday. It just wasted our time, I guess. LOL. Cause we lost our Research class which was suppose to be on that time. Our research class which seems to be so important... Yeah, that's it.

Still had 30 minutes left for our last class. Ours was religion. Yuh, I almost died of embarrassment as Vier, Mon, Miguel and Irvin freakin' picked on me. Jem was there, too. Blah blah blah.

As usual, dismissal time is quality time with Andrea. But this time, Yanie was with us. Yadda yadda.

THURSDAY. xx.
*06 - 24, 9:00P.M.*

After all, I waited but never expected

"Hindi mo naman na-a-appreciate yung mga ginagawa ko"

J's for the win line when I got irritated with the way he cut the pictures. Little did he know that I have this "his - innocence - slash- slight - stupidity - is - so - cute -in - a - sense - that -  he's - making - me - giddy" thought going on in the back of my head. I also cut this December 14 something from a magazine clipping which he never let go of after I gave it to him. Unfortunately, he left it somewhere and I took it for myself. Hahahaha. Then we would talk like how we used to back in sophomore year. Hayyy.

Things are falling into place one by one. Best wishes. xx.
*06 - 23, 8:46PM*

You Could Call Me A Flirt Then

It's been two years since "these things" happened. It feels so good to see "those" again! Not exactly, though. But it's most likely related to what I'm feeling. XJPDEODFJREOFWP, am I happy or what?! Oh, superbly. Ayayayayay!

Like what I've said in my previous blog, good luck to this which has been improving since day 1. Boo yah!

xx.

*06 - 21, 8:02P.M.*

Of First Days And Affections

This school year started off great. Buena mano much? Because I never expected that the coming days would be great as well!

WEDNESDAY, June 16

Second day of school! The start of our busy lives. Nothing much happened, but a few memorable things occurred. Wait, occurred? Hahaha. First time to form our lines downstairs! We're seniors so we're most likely thrown at the back. As usual, we were left standing there until the rosary's done. Ouch, I know, right? I just love hogging my chair afterwards... Anyways, having P.E. with Catz paid that off! It was so much fun, specially that I have lots of colleagues there. But news about being gymnasts for P.E. class gave me mixed emotions. Errmahgawd, I can just pictue myself falling off the balance beam. Well. Social studies class was quite boring. I am struggling hard to keep myself awake like a fish trying to sleep with its eyes closed. Impossible. Music class rocks! WOOHOOO!!! Mr. Enguero allowed us to watch NBA game 6, we weren't able to finish it though. And because of that, we were late for Math class! Mrs. Castaño's nice to let it slip. We played Pinoy Henyo, and my classmates are such bitzes for they would answer with sarcasm. But we all had fun! I was laughing the entire time, really. Ako coach ni *toot*! He should be thankful, if I'm not sitting infront then he won't get to answer it correctly, HAHAHA LOL. Our first meeting for English class went only for about 20 minutes. Mrs. Mendoza has to attend something important so we were left in class with no one so... the commotion goes on!!! Our last subject is Physics. Hellavuhboringyuhhh. But Mrs.Labs is so funny and makwento to the extent that the boredom-ness of this subject is unsubtle. We had our groupings too, of course. And yes, he-who-must-not-be-named-slash-whom-I like is on the same group as mine. Asdfghjkl. I spent dismissal time with Andrea, walking around the school, catching up with each other. We really missed each other, eh!

THURSDAY, June 17

Terrific third day of school! It was a milestone for Thomas to be seated during the praying of the rosary. Yehey! Oh, Vier came to school already. He had a grand entrance and a warm welcome with matching intro and applause from us. First subject was supposed to be Filipino but they alloted it for class elections. After which was Science, where Ms. Labs instructed us to make an essay regarding the branches of science whatsoever. I did it hastily so it's crappy. Economics is so... *pokerface*. Back in third year, we would hear a boinking sound. It was only until now that we came to know it's Mrs. Castaño's timer. First day of subject meeting with Mrs. Mendoza again! It's the first day, yet we had a pre-test already! I don't know what grade to expect, I was too distracted. No, not because of that. Lunch break, then computer class. My presence was acknowledged after reciting and telling everyone who Charles Babbage is. Elowel. I saw - - - - telling - - - - - - something. Hihi, sure hope it was not something. Uh, you know what I mean. Research class was our second to the last period. Ms. Isaac's so pretty! I love her. She asked us to group ourselves by committee then think of an entertaining way to introduce ourselves. Ours was a game so St. Thomas enjoyed a lot! I had fun with my committee-mates while constructing our activity! Vier said something totally embarrassing regarding J and I, so I hit him twice with Mon's notebook. *winks* Our presentation went well, and chess stuffs were invented! Teehee, I died laughing asdfghjkl. Our last subject is Religion. I feel so bad, I miss Sr. Deney a lot! All along I thought that he'd be my teacher 'til Senior Year. *Less than slash three here* Well of course, quality time with Andrea ended my day and alleviated the pain.

FRIDAY, June 18

Energy went down, and we were left standing downstairs again. Because of that, I did not stand for an hour, hogging the chair to myself, unless needed. Damn my kitten heels. We had our first meeting for Filipino class last Friday. Same as with the other sections, we introduced ourselves by means of acting. My gawd, are my classmates funny or what? They're all making me laugh! Heee. We did nothing for Physics class except for this highlighting activity which was totally "en-juvenile-ing". HAHAHA! We had early recess to give way to that awarding thing which was supposed to be done last year. They cut off our 3rd period because of that! Rawr. Ours was supposed to be P.E.. Being a noob made my head bled in Math class. Lunch, then Spanish class which was totally enjoying! Our instructor never said any Filipino or English word but he would use hand gestures so we'll be able to understand him. Last subject was Arts, we proceeded on doing the introduction thingy plus, a bit of charades. That charades something which totally made me furious. Know why? Cause my team's leading then we lost at the end because the second group did better. Ako na hindi sport! Hahahaha. Had our first monitoring job too! LOL at Jem who keeps on bugging me. LOL at what I've just said/typed.

FIRST BARKADA HANG-OUT

Donne's treat at KFC! The whole gang was there -- boys and girls. Cool. Oh and we're a pack. Cooler. Sir Deney went there. COOLEST. Quality time with the clique for the first time this school year! Wiiih! Si Ser Deney inaasar ako! Boo. YAH. Hihi.

*I, standing*

SIR D: Waiter!!!

JOWI: Ah ganon?!

SIR D: Ikaw, porket nandito lang si ------...

JOWI: Di kaya! *hides face*

Then he asked me to sit beside he-who-must-not-be-named-slash-he-whom-I-like. A few declinations happened but of course, we sat beside each other in the end. Hrhr. While J was gone to get something, Sir told me "Maswerte ka nga eh, pinaglalapit ko kayo" wherein I responded "Eh sir, kaklase ko naman yan" then he said "Ganon, dun na lang kayo magkadevelopan? *laughs*" He even told our teachers back in second year (who happened to be there also) that "Jojowain to nun eh" Asfghjkl, hahahaha! And the yie's goes on. Believe me, this story I told hasn't even reached the half of this all.

Mixed emotions for that, ya know. Hindi naman sa pakipot ako, ayoko lang kase na inaasar ng ganon. Laking pasasalamat ko na lang dahil walang paki/kamuwang-muwang si J. Hah! Good luck to myself and to this which was progressing since day 1. Ayayayay

It's a rollercoaster kinda rush. ♥ 

P.S. Forgive me, this is one crappy post.

P.P.S. I can't think of any good sentence while typing this. xx.

*06-20,1:00A.M.*

Who knew that the end's beginning would be great?

Random thoughts about senior year are going on in my head! And it surely didn't help my insomnia. Oh, I have? Hihi. Guess what, I wasn't able to sleep well last night. I slept at 12 something then woke up before 4! Oh yeah, my sleeping habit's totally screwed. Oh well, summer hang-ups. On the other side, I have all the time to prepare. I'm excited, nervous, asdfhjkl -- I feel so random! Thoughts are clouding up my mind, like totally! 

Went to school at around 6: 30. Good thing, I have my cousin from Pius who would accompany me to school every morning! So we went to school together and part ways as we reached our corridor. It was teeming with people from our batch and the batch below. It was crazy! I hear voices, but mine stood out. Despite lacking sleep, I managed to be superbly eccentric! I know, I would shrill at the top of my lungs whenever I'd see a friend or or two. First thing in the morning, St. Thomas was missing! Only to find out they were scattered like hell. Good thing I saw Shaine and we were together looking for our classmates. Yes! Old connections are still working. *winks* I walked through the corridor and saw my Borger friends crowding on St. Dominic's door. Of course, we missed each other like crazy so we crazily greeted each other! After them, I continued walking and saw Spongecake! Minus Dreng, though. Another crazy kamustahans happened! Heee. So that was a cranky icebreaker for my Senior year.

It's been two months or so since I heard Mr. Torres' bell which signals us to form our daily line formation on the roofdeck. I went there with Aizel and searched for our designated place. Hah! We're seniors already! We were thrown at the back! Oooohhhh. And again, hyperactivity attacked yours truly. And that was until Gng. Aransazo came. She looked strict (yes, she is), but she's actually fun, the kind of adviser you would want. Tough luck for Thomas, though! There goes our first punishment. Ginang left us standing there in the sultry hot roof deck, and that's just so whack. My feet hurts. Oh wait, before I forgot. Speaking of line formations, I'M SIXTH IN LINE! Uh-huh! Uh-huh!

Before entering our room, Gng. A acted as if she were a scanning machine! Though, no one was caught to go down to the P.O.S. office because everybody's safe for today. Mixed seating arrangements weren't made yet but our dearest adviser made us sit according to our height for the mean time. It feels so good to be seatmates with people you know, Michelle and Kayle! Thank you! Uh-huh. Oh and, before we had our recess, Ginang let us choose our own committees. I actually don't know where to put my name but seeing "Play" getting full already, I jotted down my name on "Serve" along with Aizel. And it was a coincidence that he-who-must-not-be-named-whom-I-like had the same committee choice as mine. Asdfghjkl, so we're committee mates. Heeeeeeeeeee! And that made me happy all through out the day. I went out of the room telling everyone who knows about "us" this thing. Hihihi, Ang landi lang ng moment na to pero ang saya saya ko!!!

Here comes recess, and I get to spend it with Spongecake!!! I missed those three. I missed seeing them united. And this moment just touched my heart superbly. *blushes*

1x1 photos were taken after we went back from our recess break. After taking mine, Andre came and we caught up. Yeah, and we were talking about how small I am. Asdfghjkl. Oo, tanggap ko na eh! Then went back to the farthest room from the deck, our's. Back to the orientation. Ginang A let us read the powerpoint presentation. You don't know how fast my heart beats whenever it's nearing my turn. I might say or do something ridiculous which may hurt my impression! I don't want that to happen. Plus, he-who-must-not-be-named-whom-I-like is on the same room as mine, right... and consciousness won't just leave me. Elowel.

Lunch time was still with Spongecake. But Shiela was there, too.Greeeeaaat. It was quite, uhm, I don't know. I'm just not used with seeing her with Spongecake, so... *big grin here*. Had a little crazy something with the C210 guys. As usual, J somethings. And thus, Jejomon was born!

It's so nice of Ginang A to let us go down and have our ID pics taken though it's not time to do so, yet. Hahahaha! I love her already, she's the best! She tells us stories and I swear, her stories would keep you awake 'cause they're interesting, really.

As this blog goes on, it does not make any sense. Or not? Oh well. First day, so far so good. xx.

*06-15, 8:24P.M.*

Being Contrary

Re-reading my previous blog posts, tweets and notes about yesterday, I realized I was too, uhm, emotional? Yeah yeah, and it looks like I'm having a hard time moving on. Oh hells, and I'm done after 10 months. It would just cut me without my knowledge, I know.

My mistake, I should be invigorating the present instead of overthinking. Better yet, I shall change my  view upon this 10 months I have. I shall take it as a blessing in which HE gave me time to enjoy my not-so remaining days with these people I love.

Heeee, I just can't wait to make the memory cam roll. xx.
*07-11-`10, 10:07PM*

Oh happy day, why didn't you shoo melancholia away?

Marian texted me the other night asking if I'd pass my UPCAT app form 2 on school `cause deadline is on the 18th already. Of course I can't refuse! Would I dare ruin my relationship with her & the gang and my future? Hell no. So we had a little meet-up earlier. It was Marian, Melicent and I who were there. Andrea has to go somewhere so she can't come with us. Pero wag ka, pagpasok namin sa school andun sya, hahahaha. We were about to pass the forms already but with wrong instructions and the forms not printed back-to-back, we have to have it reprinted. Oh great, it just hindered me to go back to sleep.


Off to Marian's place we go! Good thing that their printer's loaded with ink, which means that we don't have to spend anymore. Teeheehee. After a few errors and misprints, we finally settled it right and back to Malabon we go! But before we stopped and munch our lunch at KFC, we had Melicent's 2x2 picture taken first. We have to wait for 30 minutes or less before we get it. Heeeee... so we spent time eating, catching up and laughing! Apparently, C210 was there and heck yeah, they were totally picking on me, linking me to J. Those bitzes. Hahahaha!


We let half an hour pass after deciding to come by my place. Did nothing for an hour except talk, read back ishs of my Candy Magazine collection and watch Sukob on Studio 23. LOL. (This paragraph is just so ignorable.)


We went back to school at 1: 00 post-meridiem. And at last, everything was settled! *evil laugh* Now all we need is to pick those forms up on Tuesday so we could pass it. Mmmmm, I could just smell college spirit. After series of negotiations, we toured the school! First, we went upstairs using the stairway behind the canteen but shame attacked us so we halted. We were walking towards the school gate when a bulletin board which was designed with stuffs and has this "Seniors!" thing on it caught our attention. Flabbergasted to see that it has our batch's pictures on it. Our batch. And I was totally blown off. I just can't believe we're about to leave highschool. Heartbreak number 1.


After that, we went upstairs again via the staircase from gate 2. Heeee, we saw Sr. Deney! And it was a wrong move for me to wear short shorts. Heck I was so glad to see him there! He was fixing Mo.F's room and I am just proud to say that I disturbed him just to catch up. Hihi. I said "Sir, ti-teacher-an mo ba kame?" He jokingly answered "Hindi ko kayo magiging teacher, estudyante kayo, ako ang teacher!" HAHAHAHA. I know, my question was totally mindeffin' so we laughed. And then I said "Sir, hindi ako sanay na hindi ikaw ang teacher ko." he answered me with a "Ganyan talaga." And that's where our little pep talk ended. Heartbreak number 2.


What totally hurts me the most, learning that this someone I like will ditch the city for a simpler life in the province, which means he's goin' to study there on college. HAH. Talk about being happy `cause we're almost neighbors. Sigh...


Charceline asked me "Are you, by any chance, lonely?" THIS is the answer. xx.
*06-10, 3:46P.M.*

When Thoughts Come Around at 1: 30AM

Hello, June 7th. I know, a week before school starts! When it's supposed to be a day before classes starts again. Helluvuh yeah.

A week from now, we'll be venturing on the brink of our highschool lives. Alarm to my batchmates! Sounds surreal at first but it's true. It actually takes time for me to accept such kind of things but of course, reality bites and it looks like it chomped half of my body as I ponder we're seniors already. Yes, for real.

To my batchmates, we're in the realm of this earthy jungle. Is it safe to say we're superior? Teehee. *wink* Bring it on, yo! Show `em we rule. RAWR! Oh and, hello St. Thomas class! I'm craving to meet ya'll. I sure hope we'll click and have the grandest time ever. Please, not another deteriorated one.

Mind you, these thoughts were first written on my then Filipino notebook. And it served as my codigo while typing this. Hahaha!

Lakers lost, 1-1. xx.

To different places and beyond

Pretty soon, I'll be walking in these pretties. *smiles* And I just can't stop counting down, yo!

HALT! Reading the first words I typed seems like I'm pretty much excited for school, huh? Well... If I can move our classes' opening back to June 8th, I WILL!!! I feel so bad thinking that they took a week away from my Senior Year! Oh and, 500 pesos from my allowance. Hihihihi. Boo.

Have I mentioned that the ribbon thingy on my new pair of shoes made me excited? No? Kay.

H'okay! I'm worried this might be drafted again... so I'll post it though it's not that long and pretty much amusing.

Have you noticed that I've been using "pretty much" a lot? Okay. xx.